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Inventions Instead!!!

I dug out your clothes basket of items that I cherish. I was looking through it. Took some photos. I added some to your website. I added some of your babybook...my most favorite parts...I miss you much kiddo. I hope the angels told you my message:)

I wanted to get most of the pages on this website finished before the one year anniversary of your death, but I don't think I am going to...I will just keep working on it as the years go by...

LOVE YOU! 

They say angels go to earth and Heaven they can read this and tell you...
Calling an Angel to read this....get this message to my son in Heaven please...
  Missing you buddy. Know this... years and years you took the garbage all the way down the alley, you would of loved the fact of where we take it now, right out the gate.  Still wonder everyday what your days
are like. realizing that I cannot even fathom /imagine most of it with my earthly brain... I know you think different now, and I am learning everything heavenly I can. I just simply miss you. I am still having PTSD symptoms but now they are only when I am falling asleep and waking up. They have faded and changed. My last big one you were standing there staring at me, and it has been better ever since. If you had anything to do with that thank you. You killed my son, buddy. You were mad at me for rushing you to court, remember?
I rushed you and you were angry with me. YOU KILLED MY SON!!!! YOU MURDERED HIM! YOU DID THE WORST THING ANYONE HAS EVER DONE TO HURT ME.
However, your perfect now, you hold wisdom now far above your mother, so great I can't even imagine it.
I am learning how to view you being in Heaven a blessing and not a punishment. It was hard, but Thank God he started teaching me about Him a long time ago, because with out that knowledge I wouldn't have made it. I wanted to see you, I didn't think I could live in this vile awful world with out you. I am still alive and working on my soul.
You were more loved on earth than you thought a? You probably know that now...I am so curious to your job up there. My heart tells me your job has something to do with Love, but I am wondering if God has shown you how to do the dishes... I found comfort in knowing you got to meet my Grandma and Grandpa and so many loved ones who went on before you. Dance with my Grandma buddy, she likes square dancing. I can't wait to dance with her. I can't think of you guys dancing together without smiling.
I really wanted so badly to see you in your play, however now I know how satanic hollywood and the story of Peterpan really is...I am so sorry I didn't know before how much those things hurt our soul. Even this music playing hurts our soul buddy. God says when a person dies it was there time.
I dreamt this whole thing. I remember waking up screaming and later that morning I remember telling someone about my dream. I dreamt the whole thing...Your earthly choices made you live in Heaven now... and I am proud to have a son live in Heaven, there is no better gift, and thanks to my realationship with God, I understand this. Accepting this life God gave me was really hard, I fought it every step of the way. It is not my way, it's God's way and remembering this every second of the day is really hard.
Can you have some sunflowers next to our area in Heaven? What is your job in Heaven? Is Deogee there?
Love you much, I will bring all that love with me this I know...

Oh my has so many things changed. You are residing in Heaven. Allie moved to Pennsylvania, and Gary lee moved to Denver! On August 21, 2017 we here in Riverton Wyoming got to be under the solar eclipse and see totality. It was the most amazing thing I ever saw. Dan and I got married that day. A total eclipse of the heart. You were missed so much, know that. I KNOW you see way better than the eclipse we saw. I can't fathom the beauty you get to see. I think about it everyday.

 J.C., Allie, Gary lee


WE MISS YOU !!!!

You are the bravest person I know without a doubt the bravest person I know personally!!!!! I wish you were not so brave....but somehow you were...my precious child whom lives with God now....